I don’t know why I always do this. I’m sorry.. i know you want to help, but I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know what to tell you, i’m literally afraid to hurt you.. I don’t want you to leave me. All I know is I’m broken, &you’re starting to notice.. I just wish someone would tell me what to do because I can’t figure it out. The only thing I know that’s real is my baby boy. &sometimes it’s even hard to know that he’s real. I just need these thoughts &nightmares to leave me alone.. I’m so desperate.. But every time someone asks, I either get rude or I break down crying &say i don’t feel like talking.. WHY CAN’T I TALK ABOUT IT. someone fix me. please..